That was the brain fodder on my ride today. I felt the strongest I have ever felt on a bike today. I have now posted that al least 3-4 times in the last year. I had my checkpoint time 3 min faster than last week. Next checkpoint 2 min slower than last week. The headwind was miserable. I felt stronger though. I recovered faster on my climbs than last week but I had to climb in a smaller gear than last week. Hmmmm, so different. I feel so different than last week. What will be different for my race on saturday? I have been thinking about how much better trained I am and how much lighter I am and blah blah blah but that can be taken away if its so damn windy. But what if its absolutely calm? How much faster can I be? Did the last couple of days of nutrition influence my ride today? I do this before I race....think, think, and analyze. What will happen in this chapter? My second triathlon race season. I am so competitive yet I havent mashed when I want to. I havent mashed as long as I wanted to. The only place I talk about this is this journal. Should I talk to others about this stuff? I feel so different. Much more confident yet still over analyze some things. Funny.
As I read the posts last year leading up to this race (last year it was my first Olympic distance race) I crack up. I was so concerned about the length of the race. I was happy to finish. As I sit here I not concerned at all about distance. SInce this race last year I have raced in 2 other triathlons including a half Iron, 4 half marathons, and a full marathon. I guess what I am worried about is all that fitness improvement, all that race experience, and what if it isnt faster?
Thursday-Long swim. 2000 meters. Total: 51:38. Per 250 meters 5:50, 6:23, 6:15, 6:23, 6:43, 6:39, 6:32, and 6:50. 6:27 avg. Felt strong. Starting to remember how to swim fast. I had no fatigue post swim. Rage last year was 38 min. Can I do it in 35?
Saturday-Softball, 3 games new team.
Sunday-Bike/run brick. Started out wanting to do the whole route and a 4 mile run. I cut the bike short to get out of the effing wind. Last years training spoke of a lot of wind prior to rage. I wanted to kill the run though. I didnt. The landscape around the lake has changed and the dirt road portion of the race was very soft sand today. Baby giraffe legs + soft sand = trouble. lol. I was more wobbly than ever. Negative split by 4 min. Head wind out, tail wind back helps. 4 miles complete. I think I need 2 runs this week. Can I do the bike in less than 1:30? ( a 17 min improvement from last year) Can I do the run in 55 min? (last year was 1:04). What will be the mix of factors influencing my performance on one day, race day?
“And above all things, never think that you're not good enough yourself. A man should never think that. My belief is that in life people will take you at your own reckoning”
BELIEVE that you are good enough.